” I know I am a human and I make mistakes. Do I turn to Allah to seek His forgiveness? Do I trust Him that if He gives me a challenge I will do it?”
I do Alhamdulillah turn to Allah to seek forgiveness as I sin a lot.It is a fadl of Allah that He gives us chances to come back to Him. He is our Maula so we must hope for Allah’s mercy as someone had said that Tauba is amazing as ‘it erases the act which is present’.
I trust Allah as He has always helped me whenever I accept any challenge as a test from Him. So the first step is its acceptance. Allah says in the Quran: “…Fear Allah; it is Allah that teaches you…” Developing taqwa of Allah truly will help me even more and not stop me from holding back whenever challenged. So insh’Allah I need to use taqwa as a filter. This is a gradual process and I will to struggle till the very end of my life.