Do I procrastinate in the matter of deen?
When I wasn’t married, I used to love to sleep in. I slept for half a day. Life actually really changed after kids and when they began school. I realized how waste of a time sleeping really was. If I spent time sleeping, then nothing would get done. So I began to get the value of each hour there was in a day. Now with the study of the Qur’an, I value time like never before. We come across the words: Yusareeuna Fil Khairat, Hayya AlaSalah, Hasten towards….. and you realize, oh my gosh! Time is running out! Hurry hurry hurry.
Even with this realization, we human beings tend to procrastinate our affairs in matters of deen. Quite recently, I was observing how long my nails were and that I should cut them. Then I thought that I am going to have my periods very soon, so I will go out get myself a nice manicure and then get them cut, cleaned and get the works done then. I will also get a chance to paint my nails. So I waited for my periods, and I waited and I waited. Then I said to myself one week, “ Ok I will cut my nails on a Friday.” And Friday passed and I didn’t get to it. Each day I would feel very uncomfortable with the length of my nails, but I wouldn’t cut them! Then when we were asked to reflect on this question and I thought this example was so appropriate. To fulfill my own desires I was ready to delay this matter of deen. Maybe it might be petty to some, but since it kept bothering me, I was uncomfortable with it. Then I decided to no longer tie the cutting of my nails to having my periods and painting my nails. It turned out that my periods were actually very delayed but I felt much better with cleaner, shorter nails and more so since what I had done was as per Allah’s preference.