Going through the Qur’an has made me realize that I needed to study the Qur’an to help make me a better person, to help remove the negatives within me and help me live a better life. The concept of expectations has been a basic problem for me. I expect from others. The cycle of expectation is generally a sad one, because you expect a thing and when a thing doesn’t happen, you get disappointed and it is not over just yet. The disappointment leads to frustration, holding grudges, complain, ill-feeling and chaos all around you.
Hence, studying the Qur’an has made me exist in another realm, one that makes a more content, satisfied individual, alhumdulillah. First of all, my expectations are redirected to Allah and additionally my niyyah has changed in the doing of things.
Whenever I do start to expect and it could be a very normal expectation and not any extraordinary one as in I would like the other to get me the moon or the stars. I think of basic concepts that I have learned and that helps me just keep quiet and redirect my expectation towards Allah:
- I think of Surah Anam:162 and remind myself that my existence should be for Allah alone. All things are really irrelevant and should cease to take importance.
162. say: Truly, My prayer and My service of sacrifice, My life and My death, are (all) for Allah, the Cherisher of the Worlds.
- I think of Yaqub (AS)’s dua: Surah Yusuf:86.
86.He said: “I only complain of My distraction and anguish to Allah…
- I think Allah is Ash Shakur – The All Appreciative. Allah is Al-Baseer. I do not need people’s appreciation or their feedback, their thank-yous or their reward. I have to remember this at all times especially when I begin to feel I need to be appreciated for anything good I do, whether it be for my conveying of Qur’an to them or otherwise.