بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
اللَّهُ نَزَّلَ أَحْسَنَ الْحَدِيثِ كِتَابًا مُّتَشَابِهًا مَّثَانِيَ تَقْشَعِرُّ مِنْهُ جُلُودُ الَّذِينَ يَخْشَوْنَ رَبَّهُمْ ثُمَّ تَلِينُ جُلُودُهُمْ وَقُلُوبُهُمْ إِلَى ذِكْرِ اللَّهِ ذَلِكَ هُدَى اللَّهِ يَهْدِي بِهِ مَنْ يَشَاء وَمَن يُضْلِلْ اللَّهُ فَمَا لَهُ مِنْ هَادٍ
“Allah has sent down the best statement: a consistent Book wherein is reiteration. The skins shiver there from of those who fear their Lord; then their skins and their hearts relax at the remembrance of Allah. That is the guidance of Allah by which He guides whom He wills. And one whom Allah leaves astray – for him there is no guide”.
[Al-Quran – Surah Az-Zumar (The Groups): 23]
Like most Muslims across the globe, all my life I could not understand the Arabic language and the text of the Qur’an. Even when I read the translation I was unable to comprehend the in-depth meaning of the ayahs (verses). But having said that, the recitation of Qur’an is always a source of hope and tranquility for the Believer and so was my case.
However, now that I have Alhamdulillah, become a full-time student of the Qur’an, it is almost as if doors to another realm of existence have opened up to me! After going through the translation, word analysis and tafsir (exegesis of the Qur’an) of a surah, listening to its recitation takes on a new meaning in the true sense of the word. I can understand what is being recited, why the qari (recitor) is repeating certain verses and why he would even weep at some verses. Masha’Allah, after the lessons, the recitation can really be heartfelt.
Sadly, my understanding is still at the most minimal level as I have recently started with the detailed study of the Qur’an. Hence, I have yet to understand most of the Qur’anic recitation.
On a positive note, the other day I just sat down for a breather post iftar (breaking of fast). My kids had found something to keep themselves busy and I thought to myself that I should quickly watch some TV to unwind (after all I never really get to do it). I started flipping the channels and on the second or third channel a Mehfil-e-Shebina was being telecasted live from Faisal Mosque, Islamabad. It was almost as if my hand froze and I could move no further to surf other channels and their offerings. The imam was reciting the 11th juz, which I have not covered in my course. I could barely grasp a couple of words and phrases in between but the impact was amazing. It was the most soothing thing I could ever hear! After a while I had to get up to do the chores around the room and settle the kids but the experience stayed with me. Alhumdulillah, for this taufiq and may Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) fill my heart with guidance and emaan (faith). Ameen.
I am still far away from true taqwa (fearing Allah سبحانه وتعالى) where my eyes should weep when I read about the horrors of hell and the wrath of Allah (سبحانه وتعالى). And when the affairs of the world test me and I am in despair the ayahs of Qur’an should become my true strength. I pray to Allah (سبحانه وتعالى) to take me to that level of emaan (faith), Insha’Allah.