بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
(22:26)وَإِذْ بَوَّأْنَا لِإِبْرَاهِيمَ مَكَانَ الْبَيْتِ أَن لَّا تُشْرِكْ بِي شَيْئًا وَطَهِّرْ بَيْتِيَ لِلطَّائِفِينَ وَالْقَائِمِينَ وَالرُّكَّعِ السُّجُودِ
(22:27)وَأَذِّن فِي النَّاسِ بِالْحَجِّ يَأْتُوكَ رِجَالًا وَعَلَى كُلِّ ضَامِرٍ يَأْتِينَ مِن كُلِّ فَجٍّ عَمِيقٍ
“And [mention, O Muhammad], when We designated for Abraham the site of the House, [saying], “Do not associate anything with Me and purify My House for those who perform Tawaf and those who stand [in prayer] and those who bow and prostrate.
And proclaim to the people the Hajj [pilgrimage]; they will come to you on foot and on every lean camel; they will come from every distant pass -”
[Al-Qur’an – Surat Al-Ĥaj (The Pilgrimage): 26 & 27]
My husband and I applied for Hajj 3 years ago. Our names were selected and everything was ready, but as Allah (سبحانه و تعالى) had decreed, we were unable to go. I was extremely upset and kept on thinking “But why?” unable to see the hikmah (wisdom) of Allah (سبحانه و تعالى).
After a few months we decided to go for Umrah but the trip was cancelled. Qadr Allah (Allah سبحانه و تعالى’s decree) . In the mean time, I learnt through a friend about Al Huda International‘s Qur’an course and I decided to join. One of the subjects in the course was The Fiqh of Hajj and Umrah. While studying in the class, it was as if the hikmah (wisdom) of not being able to go was suddenly revealed to me. Had I gone for Hajj without having the proper knowledge I would never have done it with the love and the implementation of the Sunnah.
By the time the book came to an end, my eagerness to go for Hajj increased and I told my husband no matter what, I want to go for hajj this year, Insha’Allah! But by this time it was too late, and no travel agent wanted to entertain us. I intensely prayed to Allah (سبحانه و تعالى) that “O Allah, I want to go for Hajj while the knowledge is fresh. If I don’t go now the moment will pass and it won’t be the same!” Our Rabb listens and answers our call positively if we call him with full khuloos (sincerity). Out of the blue, one of travel agents accepted our application.
The time arrived for my flight. I was very excited and thanked Allah (سبحانه و تعالى) for this precious moment. As we started to take off a severe pain in my chest started, and it became so severe that I was not even able to breathe. Doctors in the plane gave me some medicine but it did not work. Despite my health, my heart and lips were doing Talbiya, and I was thinking that these are my last moments. As we landed at Jeddah Airport I was rushed to a hospital. I was crying with pain but knew that I have to endure with patience and not complain. I knew that it was a big test from my Creator. All thanks to Allah (سبحانه و تعالى) after a few hours they discharged me and not only did I skip the long immigration lines, but later on my Hajj also became easy and sahl for me.
Then came the time to see the most beautiful sight on earth i.e The Kaaba. There is no doubt that one can not stop looking at it. I was extremely happy, but the thing that made me cry was that people had come for Hajj without proper knowledge of implementing the Sunnah.
After Umrah we went to Mina immediately. The staying in the tent was a test in itself, as there were 80 women in one tent and the space assigned for sleeping in was so small that we could hardly move! On top of that the air conditioner stopped working; the weather was already hot, and it became unbearable! Here the tips of our teacher came in handy. I did not waste any time, and used this time to teach people the morning and evening adhkaar (words of remembrance), silently thanking and praying for my teacher for equipping me well.
The next day we went to Arafaat. We were taught that the Wuqoof (stay) is the essence of Hajj, and we made sure to do the Wuqoof while standing, only taking small breaks for relaxing. Here too, it was sad to see people wasting their time: it almost looked like a huge picnic! We tried to go a distance to see in perspective how the Maidan-e- Hashar would look when we will be gathered in Aakhirah (Hereafter), but couldn’t quite acquire the essence due the clusters of tents.
Luckily, we reached Muzdalifa pretty early. By this time we were so tired that we prayed and slept most peacefully on the roadside SubhanAllah! Coming back to Mina the next day we sacrificed our animals, and the men got their heads shaved. We did Tawaaf-e- Ziara and then went to the Jamaraat , which was also a one of a kind experience. By this time, I was developing fever again and was on a wheel chair.
The last day in the Masjid-u- Haraam is impossible to pen down. I did not want to leave and the tears came trickling down. My heart was focused on the Kaaba. The aim was to do as much Tawaf (circumambulation of the Kaaba) as possible. I tried to capture the Kaaba in my mind from every angle possible. Hajj is a spiritual journey, our Taqwa (Allah consciousness) is tested in ways one cannot imagine. May Allah (سبحانه و تعالى) accept it from us. Aameen.